I had a boyfriend, he was cute and the feeling i got when he stood behind me and held me felt so real. I woke up and reality hit me that I haven’t even talked to anyone in 6 months(That’s half a year, and no summer romance) I feel like I don’t need anyone, but that doesn’t mean it wouldn’t be nice to meet someone new. I wish I could of stayed in my dream a little longer. He made me feel important.
I hate the way drugs change people. The look in your eyes is blank. We don’t laugh at all the same shit like we use to. You’re strung out. You don’t need those pills, you aren’t “out of them” they aren’t perscribed to you. They won’t solve your problems, they’ll make you feel better, and then make you feel worse. Come back, things aren’t that bad.. because if they were.. I would of been on the same shit a long time ago. Stop telling yourself you aren’t strong, and become strong. I would tell you all this.. but I’m afraid our friendship isn’t worth more than them.
If I could make you feel strong, so you wouldn’t need them. Would you quit? But I know I’m not enough, and it kills me inside.
and we’re watching the New episode of Glee. I’ve never seen the show, I don’t even know what it’s about. I’m only watching it because Britney’s in it. We’ve had this weird obsession with her since… FOREVER. <3
and ask’s if he can borrow my flash jacket and matching dunks.. (i laugh in my head)He’s a freshman, and trying to be fly… but little does anyone know he’s wearing his sister’s swag. haha if he fucks them up.. it’s his ass on the line.
If I keep it real, who won’t love it.I feel like I just left my body and stared at myself in my bed for about 5 seconds.. just shook my head at my life. Theres certain things that were just meant for me. I know I deserve to have the things I want. I feel like I’m never going to make it through this rut.